You may want to see God. But you can’t. Do you know why? If “God” is a concept in your mind, then the desire to see “God” is to see that conceptualization of “God.” Does it mean that the experience that is “God” is denied to you?
I valued the pursuit of knowledge for most of my life, including on my spiritual path. Life experiences, however, thrust me into the realm of miracles that I couldn’t explain from my rational-skeptic mindset. The heart of the heart of this desire to seek knowledge, it turned out, was to find the answer to the most important question, “Who am I?”